I've lived in the least corrupted country, one of the happiest countries, one of the best cities....no wonder adjusting to another countries after New Zealand is hard.
But always a good experience regardless.

Transported back to Auckland tonight?!

Friday night in my apato..Managed and had the mood to cook dinner...and guess what is for dinner...my famous, tasteless, yet healthy chicken soup and boiled vegie...typical Novi's cooking... Blasted online "more FM" while cooking...Listened to the mad butcher ad...Discovered Brooke Fraser's new song...(Betty, and btw, recommended)..Did a little treatment to my hair...Getting cosy in my apato...while it is raining outside..it's been drizzling the whole day, just like typical Auckland's winter.

At the same time, today, had the most random conversation that I had in months with an Aucklander...we talked about how the wasabi that they have in NZ is not real wasabi!!! what a sin...?! It was also mentioned that NZ is a great place to have kids..and it is apparently NZ's good selling point...?! Important info aye....Oh and we landed on the topic of lady boys in Thailand as well.. random huh?

And also I've been in close contacts with my besties as well in the past few days...getting excited for our event of the year!!!!!

Maybe all these things add up, making me feel that i'm being transported back to Auckland tonight...reminiscing Auckland...And I need this..to have a break from what is going on around me right now. But tomorrow...I will be back to Japan...to be with Japan in this situation...praying for Japan so that God's endless love is overflowing to this nation...giving the joy and peace for those people in need....

ARGHHHHHH....pengen teriak aja......dan pelepasan..... entah mengapa rada2 sakit kepala...apa karena cuaca engga enak....td jalan2 ke post office ditemanin angin yg kuat nan dingin.....ato karena ngirup ethanol kebanyakan tadi pas polishing...ato karena mendengar berita kalo XPS nya rusak dan tidak tau kapan bisa bener nya....hmmm..banyak faktor....

Itu aja sih...yang mau dilepas...

ok...back to work....SEM udah bisa dipake....pulang cepetan ah ni hari....

Amazing grace

Depression...I can get easily depressed these days..very annoying. Yesterday was my major one. Tired with my daily life, tired with all the society pressures, tired with this and that. Even I'm tired of myself for being so depressed. Yesterday, I can understand the movie "into the wild", yesterday I felt that I wanna do something similar, to just escape the world, telling them to leave me alone....And yesterday, I also had to prepare for leading the bible study today. To be honest, I didn't have the heart to prepare it. I was actually annoyed by it. How can I lead a bible study if me myself is still feeling so distant from Him?!....So with a very heavy heart, I opened my bible....ok...I'm gonna choose the shortest verses...Found it..Matthew 5:13-16...awesome, so short. It is about becoming salt and light of the world. Did my quick research online about it, then continued watching the big bang theory. Had a short and lazy discussion with my special someone about this bible study and told him lazily, just pray for me and he did.

This morning, feeling "responsible", I also prayed for the bible study that by God's miracle, it will be ok. The whole day still feeling so dragging to lead the bible study. But that voice at the back of my head saying, you promised to lead, u have the responsibility. So I texted my sis in Christ to confirm the bible study. After talking to her briefly, I felt a bit more motivated about the bible study. Only after I finished what I had to do today, around 5.30 pm (one hour b4 bible study), I had this drive to really prepare it properly. And I did a hardout research about Matthew 5:13-16. It was an amazing one hour. I had a sudden excitement, motivation to share these verses. Suddenly I couldn't wait for the bible study.

Then 6.30 comes, it wasn't that many people, just the five of us, didn't even have a guitar for the praise and worship. I was doing alright, but for sometime I lost it and got nervous, didn't know what to talk about. But Praise God and wonderful supports from the members, we managed to have a good discussion. Not only good, it was awesome. It was amazing. His Holy Spirit was really there, guiding us, discussing with us. To become the salt of the world. To be different. To give flavour to someone's life. To preserve in the society. To heal the infection. To become the light of the world. To shine in the darkness. To show the way out from the darkness. To do good deeds for the glory of God.

I felt so renewed, so reminded and amazed by His glory and overflowing love. Life has a purpose. All the worries that I have about the future are so meaningless. This place is not where I come from, this is just a temporary place where I have been give the chance to glorify His name. So it doesn't matter anymore where I am or who I am with. It is all about becoming the salt and light of the world. It's an amazing purpose that gives a peaceful feeling beyond what anyone can imagine.

Copycat

I've been introducing my new blog to all my closest friends, including this one that's all the way in the UK. Met up on skype and I was so excited to show her. And she said.."I've got a blog too"...and we started sharing our blogs...first time I opened it....http://hungrynsleepy.blogspot.com/......I was..."am I opening my own blog?"...What a copy aye....I agree that they created the blog earlier...but seriously..it's green...everyone knows it's my colour. I'm sure they were thinking of me when they chose the design...=p...

But anyhow...maybe it is not copycatting...maybe because deep down we are connected haha. This girl, scarily, can read my thoughts...I don't even have to say it or even finish my sentence (which I often do, that's why I start this blog, but that's another story), she can understand me. She is a smart girl tho hehe. We've been friends for ages. She's in fact one of my first friends in NZ. I remember I first saw her in 5th form accounting class. She was sitting behind me...first impression...goodness me these girls talk a lot..(sorry haha)...but fortunately luckily that she talks a lot, so she did said hi to me first (I know..I can be a snob). And we've been friends since. She also follows me through engineering school hahaha although she decided to take EEE and we were apart =(...but still she would hang around in my classes. Even I think by the end of 3rd year uni, people still thought that she was doing chemmat. Anyhow, I'm so greatful that she is always around..We've been through so much together, laughter, randomness, cries, anger, back to laughter. Now she's actually miles away from me. First time that we are actually apart since first time we met. And I miss her sooo much. But as she told me, distance does not matter, we are always there to support each other. Right now, both girls are out in the real world, creating our own stories, fighting for our place in this world...and of course to be happy....

And now, I think I need to talk about her other half too. Afterall, they do share the blog..What to say about this guy...if I wanna de-stress, he's the person to go too. This easy go lucky guy... first time we met, well...he was in 6 of my classes during first semester of 1st year uni, we just kinda had to say hi right. He got the most difficult name ever...took me forever to remember. But we just clicked, just like that. He was very cute and innocent tho, engineering changed him. Ahh imagining all the laughs that we had, the pranks that he did..(I was just enjoying the entertainment), the song that we sang when we were stressed out (me mostly).."wouldn't it be nice"...foozeball competition..we are brother and sister...

Now, both of them together in the UK starting their lives together..hohoho...can't wait for more exciting news from these two...=p....

starting my blog

Today, I finally have a blog. I've never thought that I'm a blog person. Never wanted to have one, until about a week ago I watched this movie in the plane...guess what the movie is?! Of course not surprising.."Julie and Julia".  And also inspired by my only current follower few weeks ago...about how it can be a stress relief to have my thoughts written somewhere. And even more, gained some supports about blogging from friends last night while we were having dinner at our favorite sushi place...Here I am, starting my blog, that hopefully will be filled with my random thoughts...and in return, hopefully it will help me to re-organise my thoughts...

Work

Work..but wishing to leave and have my weekend...